My so-so thoughts

Don't know why I've become dull, and lack of confidence not only of myself, but to the the world around me. "It's not the end of the day" I said to myself one day. "Everything's new for you... home, career, people..." blah blah blah... I can't imagine myself one moment that I'm truly content with the things around me. I can't even say "Yes, I am fine" when I know I'm far from the state of being "alright". I'm not saying I'm troubled; it's simply an imaginary vagueness/storm that I've on my mind. And that my heart is frequently disturbed by the ripples in my life. How come these ripples are tides to me. The turbulence is rocking and shaking me in different ways, from different directions. The cave has become my sole protection/assurance. I just don't trust anyone, but my Lees.